Have Hope

From Dictionary.com: the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best.

This word has been on my mind these past few weeks.  As we finished the Jewish holidays and began this weekend, reading the Torah from the beginning, it is clear to me that HOPE is found within, could be inspired by others and lost in a tragic incident. 

I use the word a lot at work:  “I hope you can join us.”  “I hope you feel better.”  I hope my meeting goes well.”  I also use it at home:  “I hope you finished your homework.” “I hope you paid the bill.”  “I hope you are kidding.”  And “I hope you know how much I love you.”

I decided that I really like the word.  Years ago, during a sadder time in my life, I found the word to be very phony.  Whoever used it was not sincere.  I realized that it wasn’t them, it was me.  I was in a dark place and could not listen to anyone offering kindness.

And now as I begin this year of learning, sharing and loving, I am full of hope.  I see goodness in so many and I forgive people for being mean because I think they are really sad.   

I haven’t written New Year resolutions but it might be fitting –

 

·         Hold onto hope.
·         Hold onto love.
·         Hold onto goodness.
·         Hold onto joy.
·         Hold onto each other.
·         Hope to learn.
·         Hope to understand.
·         Love big.
·         Keep the healthy close.
·         Let the unhealthy go.
·         Meditate

Wishing everyone a year filled with love, laughter and learning.

The Big Book Is a Must Read

About 9 years ago, someone recommended that I read The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous. I was going through a tough time and I thought I would give it a try. I heard the story of Bill Wilson and I knew he was pretty amazing.
And then I gave up. I decided that since I was not an alcoholic, the book was not for me. So I put it down and there it stayed for 7 years.

Then my dad died. I walked around numb for a few weeks maybe more. It is all a blur. Then one day, I found The Big Book on my shelf. I am not sure if I looked for it with purpose or if it appeared to me. Regardless, I decided that I will start reading it.

What I know now and I didn’t realize then, is that I was looking to read something about people who are also sad. I was unable to articulate my feelings so I found comfort in the words of others. The Big Book of AA is a compilation of incredible stories of despair, recovery and hope. I read the stories of real people who found themselves in sad, dark places and with action and time, they were able to heal. And if it worked for them, then maybe it would work for me too.

It took me only a few days to read the book and I cherished every word. The book helped me during the darkest time in my life.

Whether you are an alcoholic or going through a difficult time, this book can help you regain some hope.